My Story

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Thanks for stopping in Prairie. Keeping tabs on your post also.

Update:
Had a long talk with my dad yesterday. He shared something with me that I never realized about my wife. She has had something inside her for years that she hasnt been able to let go. And he has seen that in her from the very first day I introduced the two of them. He does not know what exactly it is and I am sure she probably has told me a million times.
But until she starts the very same thing I am trying to do here she will never get over the hurt I have caused her and that she has put on herself over the years.

Update 2:
Have started taking over more responsibilities around the house that I used to shrug off onto her. Doing more with the kids now and trying to find this void inside that is keeping me from truly showing them the love I have for them, but I think as I find myself over the next few weeks this will hopefully become easier.
I did piss the wife off Friday when I was paying the bills, things are tight right now and she wanted me to do one thing a way she wanted and I did it the way I wanted to. She made a comment that she didnt trust me to do it right and I replied back " Either you can trust me to do this or pay the bill yourself" woooops she hasnt talked to me since. Oh well whats she going to do? Divorce me?

Update 3:
The roller coaster is still going, I can be doing fine for a few hours and then it hits me and I have to bee line to the bathroom and just break down and cry. Not as much anymore and I can recognize it when its coming. So at least the kids arent seeing Dad whimpering on the floor like a kicked dog.
Seeing the Doctor here in a few hours and let him know about this and see if he can put me on something for a few weeks to take the spikes out of my day.

Thank You All and see ya next update.