maynard, the thing is I don't know if it is a mistake or not. Yea I don't feel real good about the sleeping together. I don't want to be used. But if it is helping her to connect to me is it a bad thing? I know by saying that it is going back on "i don't want sex to be the reason we work things out, i want communcation" grrrr this is so damn confusing.
I do know that I have been making changes for myself and that I have been doing better. I need to get out more on my own though and when I do I'll be able to keep my mind off of her and our R. It is hard to resist not being around her. Especially when she says I never took her out. I want to do things with her. I want to show her that If this is what you are wanting I want to do it for you. But with all the DBing I shouldn't be doing that. I should limit our contact to when she comes to watch our kids in the morning and to when she sees them at night but I don't know how this is going to help me. It is tough. and Lame that I have to play mind games with a person I have loved for 7 years. lol I say that and then think of other people on here that have been married for 3 or 4 decades. How pitiful I must sound.
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
