W left this morning for a two day trip to go to a concert with her sisters. She asked me a couple of weeks ago to take the days off work to watch kids and get them off the bus and to school funtions. I really thought about telling her no, if you want to go, you find someone to watch them untill I get off of work. But, they are my resposibility too, and I just couldn't tell her that. She just has no idea what it would be like if I wasn't here so she could go do all of her running. Under normal circumstances, I wouldn't mind at all, but things aren't normal, are they? I did get a kiss good-bye. Big deal.
I took the kids to a movie and out to eat for S fourth b'day Sat. We all had a good time. We have a motocross game that he likes to play and you can change the # of your character. His guy had the #3, and when he played it that night, after about 15 min., he called me into the room and told me to change his guy's # to 4 because he was 4 now and his guy had to be 4 too. God, he is such a good kid, they all are!
Trying to stay positive and as detached as I can. It was hard watching her leave this morning, but I was all smiles and told her to have a good time and to be carefull. She has been in an OK mood the last few days, maybe she's just excited about the concert. Who knows, but it's better than being a B all the time. I miss the good old days, I miss my wife.
