It is hard, and it's not for everyone. You will find out over the next month whether you can take living with such uncertainty for a period of time for a man who made "forever" vows to you. You may find out that you can't, and that's okay. You're trying to wait it out and you may be able to, but you may not know if you can handle this without too much emotional damage to yourself for a month or more. Try to get some support.
