How do I act?

[Surviving03]

thank you aces... i want so badly to keep my head in this and keep fighting, my H comes home on Thursday from Iraq but then is leaving again for 2 weeks in about 2 weeks to go see his daugther, pick up his new midlife crisis car, and perhaps go visit somebody in cali? I am SOOO scared that he will file while he is in the States. And what do I do if he does? crappy thing is I will have to leave here... time is just really working against me here. i am scared to death and feel completely out of control... i thought some of my DB techniques were working but now i think he is just playing nice to make this go more smoothly. i dont know... life sucks right now.