In particular I liked your comment about believing that there is a "divine" reason for this. (I forget how you put it exactly, but I think it's an important point.)
Honestly, that is the only way I have gotten through this. I am not an overtly religious person, but I do believe each individual is entitled to their own relationship with their version of God. It depends on what you have been taught. But I also think it is a very personal relationship.
I read someplace that people take two steps when they are encumbered with a situation that is painful...either they turn away from their faith or it becomes stronger. I find great solice in my faith. When I am at my weakest, I do pray for the strength to get through it. And somehow, even if it is a second at a time, I do gather that strength.
I still love the SG. I have accepted I probably always will. But that doesn't mean that at some point, I cannot open my heart to love someone else either.
But first, I am really learning to love myself.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
