But last night she called (she had been drinking) the kids were with me and she didn't have her D either. so she talked for a couple of hours. Mostly inane banter. But she finally started talking about the R. She had asked me why I loved her; so I read her my reasons. I say "read" because she wanted us to have that ready before MC as if the counselor would ask us for it. Anyway she started crying and said that I needed to pack the kids up and bring all of us to her house. I said, "No, the kids are asleep." "Well, I'm coming over there. I miss you guys."
So I take this as a sign of her fear of abandonment. I don't sense any seriousness to it; except to get what she needs out of it.
So, I've been trying to save my M; what if I can't fully commit now? She seems to be coming around little by little; but I'm not sure that I want HER. I still don't want my family to broken; but I'm not sure that SHE is WHO I want.
