Ex dropped off S5, and I lost it. I went off on him for being a bad father, for spending more time with his phone than his son, etc. He said he stands firm on abortion. I asked him to spend more time thinking about it.
Here's some mistakes: - Lost my temper. Duh, that was a huge one. - Cried. - Asked who he was involved with. (Got major denial on this one) - Begged him to reconsider his decision. - Asked for help during pregnancy. - Told him what he's doing "wrong" in his R with S5.
All speculation, but I think I know ExCautious enough that this is pretty close to the truth: He's going on that date tonight. He may or may not feel some guilt about it, but mostly he feels like he's "pulling one over" on me. Eventually that's going to become a difficult R to maintain, especially since his best friend and his father now know that I am P. At this point, I just have to ride it out, try to keep my PMA up, and see how and when he'll be willing to assist me, if at all.
The weird part is, he made me consider the A as a viable choice. But he has to realize that would cost him $200 - $250 for half as well as I would be out of commission for a month for recovery (can't even lift over 12lbs for two weeks). I'm definitely not going to keep silver plattering. I'm going to make this as difficult for him as he's making it for me, just subtly.
Maybe I'm being a bit too harsh, though. For now, back to NC until he comes to me.
Me: 26 Ex: 27 Son: 5
Divorced: 3/2010 Each day is another opportunity to do it right.
