8 weeks until D Day!!

[lea74]

So need some advice. In a bit of a dilemna. Regarding the disclousre of income I have asked my H via 2 emails and my L has asked via an official letter. My H has refused all of the requests. My L would now like to proceed with a court order, which my H will have to pay for. I mentioned to my L that I would ask one more time via an email. However I am not sure if I should. I have given my H enough times to answer and also feel that this would be a huge 180 for me. He would also notice that I am not taking his Cr8p anymore and that I will not be treated badly.

Somehow I feel guilty though. How is that possible? He has left me? He has filed for a D? He has had an A? Yet I feel guilty about asking for what is rightfully required?

Why do I feel guilty? Why am I nervous? Why do I still feel beholden to him and care what he thinks?