Yes, they do peek out periodically during the crisis. The peeking is called "moments of sanity and/or clarity".
Your second questions is yes, they bounce around even w/the ow in the picture. As they travel through acceptance, the ow should slowly fade away, but again, it varies between the mlcers. No two situations are completely alike.
Since you are taking steps to learn more about mlc, may I suggest that you read the Resources threads and also the MLC Archives....lots of information in this area.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
