Thank you, Lost! More work to be done, though... always!
WARNING - WHINER ALERT
So, H was been a royal PITA this weekend. Hardly got any sleep this week (while gone for work), and woke up a PITA yesterday. Couple that w/me having a stomach virus... and he doesn't do well w/me being sick. He's not a caregiver type. (However, he did buy four cases of Gatorade!) At one point during the am, he was in the kitchen while I was making the family lunch, and he starts on his checklist of things he thinks I should be getting done. (To tell you all the God's honest truth, it's everything in my power just to handle the boys and do a passable effort of my job, with him traveling all week, AND, I'm convinced, even though I come across happy, etc..., that I really am dealing w/some severe depression. I can't concentrate. If I have to start a project, and one I don't really like, I become paralyzed.) So, I just let him go through his checklist, and gave him my "updates," but, honestly, not w/the most enthusiastic of response. At one point, he said, "Just give me the xxxxxx, and I'll just take care of it." I told him, "Thanks, I have a lot on my plate. Go ahead."
The day improved, but since I wasn't feeling well, I went to sleep early (which he was annoyed by).
So, this am, he and S10 were going bowling w/family. S12 stayed home and slept in. H wakes up, again w/the mood, and it appeared anything I said in conversation was considered stupid, or dismissed, so.... THANK GOD HE LEFT!!
I have made a promise to G to think about my heart and health before I go taxing myself and running when I'm sick, but I HAD to go this am. I was so f'ing done w/the attitude, and if I didn't... he was either going to see me cry (NOT HAPPENING) or I was going to say something to send him reeling.
So, I am back from running, and I'm fine. I am going to finish his f'ing checklist, do my own checklist, and let him handle the boys for lunch and dinner (HELL, NOTHING WRONG W/LEFTOVERS!).
I'm a pissy example today. No worries, I'll turn this around.
(HIS GOOD MORNING THIS AM WAS... "GOSH, I COULD SLEEP UNTIL WEDNESDAY!" Me, "So, go back to sleep!" He grumbles and stumbles into the shower.)
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
