I want to be open to Reconsiliation- it just seems foolish to even make mention of that.
that's because it is foolish!
Maynard - we have shared our situations and support for one another in the past 30 days and I wish you the strength and conviction that I am gaining while my situation unfolds.
You have to turn the spigot of pain off before you can gather what's left of your self esteem and move forward. You do this by learning to cope with things you cannot change.
Sure, it sucks. Yes, it hit you out of left field. Indeed, this was not the way it was supposed to be.
With that said - it is and your are.
Accept and move forward.
Go back to a time prior to your wife. Grab hold of that time and start to eliminate useless do-nothing time in your life. At first, its going to be difficult to see the benefit of keeping your mind busy - but you will - and days will go by where you are actually feeling confident about yourself.
My situation hasn't change much over the past few weeks but I have.
I no longer find it acceptable to be pissed off by my situation.
I no longer find it acceptable to spend time alone doing nothing.
I no longer find it acceptable to choose to be in a crappy mood all day.
Yes, the pain is still there but my outlook and attitude is changing.
Why?
Because the only thing I can control is changing is myself.
I have started working out and spending more time with my son and both of those things have made me a better, healthier person.
