Sweets, my heart goes out to you. You have been incredibly strong, and being served divorce papers was a serious and cruel blow.
If your H was that unhappy in the relationship, why didn't he friggin sit you down and talk about the issues with you, or ask for a separation?! I will understand why our H's have done this - it's appalling. It takes two to make a marriage less than perfect, but each partner owes it to the other to speak up when there is something seriously amiss for them.
What did he say when you talked about the OW? Silence? Did he deny it?
Apart from looking through bills and phone records, did you ever do any other snooping to find out about the existence of another W?
Also, what are his parents saying to you? Are you in contact?
Good you didn't reply to his texts. You are right to focus on you 100% & good on you for having the baby shower. Go girl! I sensed you were a brave and strong- minded one from the beginning.
But still, to help you heal, maybe you should think of having an intermediary deal with any correspondence to do with the baby or finances? One of your sisters? A friend? Just so you can protect yourself properly and enjoy this pregancy, as you say.
<<<<<Hugs>>>>> from me.
Me 36; H 40 baby born in May M:13, T:15 Bomb (OW): Dec 09 began DBing: Feb WH overseas with OW old: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2027369#Post2027369