Looks like I'm talking to myself here but even just writing helps.

So today didn't end as well as I'd hoped. DD got really emotional a few times and said she wanted mommy. I was being as caring and gentle as I possibly could. Spent every minute of the day with her, took her to the parks, played, colored, caught some bugs etc. Finally I decided if she really wants to sleep with her mom I don't want to make her think she can't, I want her to be happy no matter what. So I called the STBXW but she didn't answer the phone. Half an hour later she called but by then DD was ok and we were coloring so I didn't answer. Finally I took DD to another park and on the way back she said she wanted to stay with mom tonight and I told her OK. I knew she really wanted to because she didn't even want to watch Madagascar, her fav movie. So I called and explained the situation to STBXW and she came and got her. She didn't say anything neither did I while DD was finishing her dinner. I got really emotional when DD gave me a hug and asked me to come visit her tomorrow and that she'll miss me tonight. I tried to hold back my tears but I couldn't. She waved from the car as I stood by the house waving back.

I'm sure STBXW doesn't care one bit. I have a migrane headache from the emotional roller coaster and have a laundry list of things to do tomorrow which feels overwhelming. Oh STBXW did ask me right before walking out the door if she could grab her cookbook from the kitchen. I said sure.

Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6
Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks
Aug 2006, left again
Apr 2007, filed for divorce
Dec 2007, reunited
Mar 2010, moved out, filed again