still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Hi Flowmom,
putting my life on hold while home with my new baby is why this is ok with me...why I am not in a rush. I think what would I be doing differently if I were divorced? Nothing. So why not stay married and do the DB techniques?

I know I will be okay either way. I am choosing this path.

I will not be in an unhappy marriage just because I have a child-not fair to me or the child. I will see if we can work through this if we R but if we can't work through this I will divorce him.

My inner core is fine. I don't need to go to IC right now, but did for about 3 months in the beginning. My inner core knows that I have the right to stop hoping, to file for divorce at any time. To declare NC.

I listened to my inner core when I decided to talk to WH about my feelings. I have zero regrets and am glad I did it.

When I was referring to the multiple marriages in my family, the point is EVERY ONE said "looking back, I know we could have worked through those struggles." Yeah no one cheated on them.

Hey on one hand it is a relief to see proof that there is life after divorce.

And started being the better option but now I don't need to- my self improvements are here to stay, I am the better option, now I am just doing old fashioned stall tactics while GAL.

I think I will be my BITCH self which means you have your career, your own interests, your own set of friends, and are not hanging on his every word. So I have all of the above now.
I am set.