feel like giving up - pt 2

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Hello from No More Mrs. Nice Luv....

H came home late last night of course. There was a charge on the account for what I'm sure was the homewreckers dinner at a vietnamese restaurant.

He has been raising his voice to me and I told him to stop talking me in that tone. He comes near me and I move the hell away. He asked me to go the car wash so we went and took both cars. When they were done he said, "do you want me to wait for you?" I said, "if you want."

He has tried to raise his voice at me several times and I told him in a mean tone to stop talking to me like that. I've walked away from him and have been ignoring him (just for a bit cuz I'm mad) but he changed his attitude pretty quick.

We have to paint daughter's room and I usually help (were great painters) but don't know if I'll help him. I'm still pretty damn sick but at least I can walk around today. If he asks I'll say, "if you talk to me in one bad tone I'm not helping."

He went to the market to get himself some beers and asked me if I wanted any. I have been being kinda mean since last night. I'm sick of him. I feel like I don't care what happens. I can't watch my p's and q's anymore and my F's are definately gonna come out.

I'll try to calm down and not be too mean. Go ahead and give me lashings they won't even hurt ha!