Alright...W left a bit ago, she showed up w/ her friend...the one that I knew personally and whom I had reached out to back in Oct...
I had PMA and was doing well...W disappeared, I guess to get changed...I could not help but get into a conversation w/ her friend...turns out her friend is Aetheist, and is privy to lots of W's feelings...everything has to do w/ W not having the feelings she should have.
I confronted friend about her not stepping up back in Oct...she is all about personal happiness and never once made a stand for therapy or anything else...Unfortunately I did challenge her, so probably will not help me at all, she contradicted herslef MANY times throughout the conversation.
It appears as though happenstance is a huge part of my sitch- the type of friends W has, their own politics or life perspectives, etc...it was always doomed...
W and I spoke candidly for 2 minutes...she still claims to just want to get settled, to figure out what she wants...she admits to genuine saddness over our sitch, and that's all, saddness- that nothing was what had been planned...
In the meantime- unconfirmed by W, she is still in a R w/ OM, she will be here tomorrow w/ the same friend and MIL to get MIL's things...and that is that.
W gave me a great hug, perhaps the best one we've had in years...i tried to pull away, but she held it for quite a bit longer.
I dont know what to think...I know that if she's trying to figure out what she wants, OM will have "single" on his FB page...and that is not the case.
She is still cake-eating, I am tempted to have W move all her shirt tomorrow...I will wait for advice befoe I ask her to do so.
Overall, an OK experience- there was no pursuing (unless my conversation w/ her friend was seen as such), there was no begging, no crying, no pressuring...
I did make mention of having been out w/ someone else- W's eyes widened...I did admit that it just felt wrong...
BTW- an intial conversation regarded Tiger Woods...I used to play his video game religiously, I explained that I had no respect for him and have thrown out the game as a result of his actions...this was an odd conversation and things seemed tense as a result...
Dinner in 2 hrs...looking forward to getting out of my head.
