Lea, HE has not forsaken you, HE is right there. This has been going for awhile and H still has not divorced you. Walking in faith is very difficult when you focus on the things you see. I am sure you guessed OW was outside in the car but you went outside anyway. That only hurt you. If you could keep all the pain inside, away from H and boys and vent here or when boys go to bed, this would help you. Don't give H the pleasure of seeing you in pain.
