Starting Over (Again)

[Quart9]

It has to be very tough for you to maintain NC when your S5 is involved. How often does your S5 call you when he is with your EH? I think it would be best for you to leave his number blocked no matter if S5 is with him or not. Will S5 really be that bummed if he has to leave you a V/M?

You have to seriously stop with the hugs/affection too. Does your EH deserve your affection? Didn't he want the D? And if it is raining he should go in the house not get in the car with you. You have to have more respect for yourself and he has to miss you in order for what you are trying to accomplish to work.

It sounds like you are doing good in your GAL'ing and I think putting your daily goals out there like that is a good idea- I might try that.

Go get that pedicure - you deserve it!