8 weeks until D Day!!

[lea74]

Hi G, thanks for the input. I know that I should have faith. I did at one point, but now feel so alone. Also, Why Lord have you forsaken me. I know I am no different to anyone else and therefore deserve my fair share and that there are people out there who are going through alot more. Just at the moment this is my hell. I really am trying to have faith, but am blinded by all the hurt.

Just tonite my H dropped off the boys and I couldnt understand why his car wasnt outside. He gave me some stupid excuse which I didnt even hear. I went out to my car and saw why. He had parked on the road and she was in the car. When I saw this she jumped into the driver seat , he practically ran to the car and he drove off.

I never realised how bad that this would make me feel. He felt awful to see him with her and that she drove his car off (his car is his pride and joy). I cam isnide and ratned and I know that it wasnt fair on my boys but I did says some things I am not pruod of. Also my sons made me some cards for Mothers Day which is tm, and they made them with her.

This is so hard!!! I feel like I am in the middle. Tryin g to please everyone, hold everyones pain, making sure everyone else is OK. What about me. I have to see my H with anothe woman and then also see my Kids with her too.

I dont know how to deal with this??????