WAW in PA-I Moved Out in Error & D has been Filed

[Quart9]

I wish I could shake this feeling I have now of jealousy. I'm jealous of OM getting to be with my W. It is just not fair man. I'm also jealous of her living comfortably and I'm jealous that she has been going and doing so much with OM. Plus, I'm jealous that she has someone else to lean on during all of this. Why does this all get to be SOOO easy for her?

I need to change my attitude and I guess today I'm just feeling a little low. I just feel like she is out there living lavishly and having a good time without feeling any concern for this sitch. She is just doing a better job of GAL'ing I guess -haha!

She doesn't know I have filed yet/she has not been served. She sent me a text yesterday to ask me if I had decided if I was ready to move forward with the divorce so she could let her L know to begin the process. She is just so matter of fact about it - like its as easy as deciding on what movie to go and see or something.