This is where the rubber meets the road. The man you have been versus the man you are becoming.
Sometimes we need to hear someone else say the things that we are thinking inside just to realize that it is NOT our path after all.
The consistency that you have lacked so far comes from severing the connection between your image of yourself and your wife's actions/words/behaviors. I suspect that the vascillation you've been living probably mirrors your wife's interactions with you fairly closely. When she's nice and close to normal, you find yourself able to cope and continue on. When she is dismissive or you make a discovery, you are ready to end things.
Emotionally getting to the place where you see yourself honestly as you are, without making that judgement based on your wife and how she is behaving towards you....well, that's the place to be.
You're beginning, I think, to understand some of the things we've been telling you.
Press on.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
