flowmom | need to commit to myself

[flowmom]

Kalni, I wanted you to know that my children felt totally OK telling me that they were looking forward to staying with H tonight. When I send them off I do know that they will be safe and have fun and I can sincerely say "have fun!" and mean it.

That doesn't resolve my concern about how having 3 overnights with H out of every 8 days will affect their feeling of "home" though. And the schedule insanity.

I am finding it hard to make a connection with S6 lately. I am going to have to work harder on engaging him I think.

I finally realized that with all the divorced firefighters out there, other mothers must have dealt with the schedule craziness too and I should figure out how to contact them and find out what kind of custody arrangements have been put into place.