Ms. H, Why would you even care what he thinks of you? Look at how he has behaved and treated you throughout all of this. You've been a very classy lady and I would step right on the train and say that you are far, far from being a xitch.
Don't give another thought to what he thinks...he's the one that has to look in the mirror and figure things out.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
