still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Thanks for all of your opinions! I am going to be very blunt here and it will sound rude I am sure but here it is:

1) I am CHOOSING this path that I have started. It is a CHOICE. I can jump off whenever I want. It is my life. I am not withering away, dying, tortured, NOTHING BAD will happen to me if I am in limbo as long as I want to be! Seriously? What bad thing will happen????

2) my h is acting like a piece of Sh*t. but he is NOT a piece of Sh*t to the core or else I would have left him.

3) i am educated about affairs and long term affairs.

4)I will NOT do this forever! So i set a deadline of Jan 1 back in November- out of pressure from other people. It came to and i wasn't strong enough to do it.

5) kicking him out did crap. ultimatums did crap. i found divorcebusting. i am following the principles but not the LRT

6) I come from a family where my parents and every aunt has divorced and remarried and divorced again. I don't know how many of you have experienced this--this is a whole other subject.



Ok so I got that off of my chest.