Just re-read my last post. Sorry about the whining. Sometimes when I am posting, I just let my mind go and lose all of the hard earned control that I have worked for.
You don't have to be strong here on the board all the time. This is the place to vent, whine, or whatever it takes to regroup and not let all that out in front of your family.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!