I just don't understand how W can seem like her same old self but not be. It's like I want to see signs that she is Alien W or in a fog but it must be just in her mind. She seems like the same person I've been with for the past 24 years.
I assume you are refering to this particular evening. She will appear to be "herself" occassionally and for short periods of time, but she is still messed up. The way she dressed.....that's a good indication. Her wanting to hug you before you left.....that's her way of saying, "It's going to be okay, now you run along and let me have my life and you just survive, but now I want you to be on the sideline being my friend in case I need anything".
I'm glad you come here to express your feelings of frustration. I want to remind you once in a while that you are robbing yourself from "peace" by trying to figure her out. You have to put it down in the book of Crazy WAW Syndrome and don't try to analyze it or it will drive you nuts.
As far as her having peace & quite, I doubt her mind is anything but that. If you are refering to you being dark, it hasn't been enough time and besides, she is still seeing you, so you can't really call that"dark".
Press forward with making yourself happy.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
