still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

I was talking to my SIL yesterday and telling her about what her brother said, etc. I explained how it confused me because he was being so extra friendly and giving lately.

She said her H was really friendly before asking to come back- that he was trying to see if she was receptive to the idea. She asked me if WH knows I still want to R.

I kept saying that how could he not know??? How could he not remember what I told him back in November? SHe teased me and said , oh you mean how you felt uh...5 months ago? So I smiled but said don't you think he would wonder why I didn't bring up divorce if I wanted to be done with him? And she countered with well maybe he thinks you are waiting until you go back to work.

NOW WH and his sister are not best buds--they DON'T talk he DOESN'T tell her stuff- so she is not relaying any truth, fyi! Just speculation.

She said why couldn't I express my feelings once in awhile. OK I have been mulling this over trying to find a way to tell him why I was sad without asking for an ultimatum or pressuring for the D. So I want to write out my thoughts here. AND TELL HIM TONIGHT WHEN HE PICKS UP S.