KJ - I have been thinking about that awakening thing, too. Since everything in MLC takes so long, it makes sense that that would too. And honestly, if I were "waking up" and seeing all the damage I had done, I think I would run and hide for awhile longer, too.
I have had my moments of wondering if I was the one who didn't remember things correctly, too, but I don't think so. I do hate that feeling that my H thinks I am horrible, that we were never happy, etc. Frankly, I have no idea what he thinks these days about us/our past. If he is starting to remember the truth or not.
That depression must color everything. I don't suffer from depression in general but I know days that I have felt down and hopeless through this nothing seems good and it is hard to see the positives. I can't imagine how hard it is to find anything good when your whole world feels bad.
You sound like you are doing well for the most part. How is work? Is the new job going well? How are the girls?
