I don't want a D. I made a commitment when I got married. I will always choose family first. I fight for what matters most to me. I can't stand in her way if she wants this.
My heart and my head are fighting over what I want.
My head says she is a no good, lying, cheating, betraying, crazy, immoral, not so nice person;)
My heart says she is my wife, a human being, the mother of your child, and I still love her.
Goals? I'm so consumed with the D I don't have any other goals but to stop it. Since we've been M (3 years) I've been improving myself. Getting in better shape (still a way to go but I have lost over 100lbs twice), eat better, I quite smoking, learned to control my anger. I have been doing 180s for a long time before I knew what they were. For me to GAL I take W out of the equation and keep doing what I'm doing.
Last night I took everything out our bed room that was hers. Need to box up her cloths still. I going to go room by room and do something to change it.
I'm a little leery about getting a L. I have only met with one a few weeks ago. She was very expensive but the best in town. Should I consult with some others? Forgive my ignorance. This is my first rodeo. I'm not sure how best to protect myself.
