still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Went to baby play group, got hair done (it will look good in a month possibly :-( ) and went to Bunco. When I got back, he was doing work on his computer. I did according to plan- but got a glass of water in the kitchen before going upstairs.
I think he wanted to talk to me about his stitches or something because he came into the kitchen and out of the corner of my eye it looked like his pants were unbuttoned and he was wiggling- okay that sounded wrong! I just should say it reminded me of when a little kid coughs loudly and looks at you then sniffles loudly and looks at you so you will ask "are you feeling ok?"

But I pretended not to notice and so I didn't bring it up.

Well when I went upstairs to go to bed, he said "Ok well I'll see you tomorrow!" And I just said "yeah, bye! see you tomorrow!"

He didn't say you guys, he said "you!" not that I am thinking it means something just that I noticed it.

So I did remember something my DB coach said- that sometimes the WASs will bring up comments implying divorce to put up a wall after feeling close. (or because they really are going to divorce you or because the OW is pressuring them again) I just had to remember it doesn't mean the worst necessarily.

"Believe nothing of what they say and 50% of what they do."