WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

I think that is why I find it difficult to 100% believe that OW and H won't last. Because she hasn't had the "issues" that I have had and doesn't need to unlearn the negative patterns and coping mechs that I have to. So in a way, she can give him what he so desperately needed from me without "hangups" or a learning curve.

Affection, validation, boundaries, and approval are all things I grew up without and now I am having to learn those things that kids naturally learn without trying for my own benefit. (all things H grew up without as well and craves).

Social isolation was a big part of my childhood as well, so I'm having to learn how to talk to people without anger, sarcasm, bluntness and to be aware of those invisible boundaries in conversations. At the same time, I'm trying to guide my 3 year old and teach my Autistic son the same lessons (re: social skills training) Feels like the blind leading the blind.

I'm not beating myself up about it because I am who I am because of what I have gone through and survived, but it's a depressing thought for me that she may be less "damaged" and less work to be with... And H always takes the easy way out...