You know what's hillarious? Ex is probably horribly confused by my behavior right now. Here's somewhat of how I imagine his internal dialogue: "I got rid of OW, so why is she being so distant NOW? Maybe her worst fear really WAS having S5 around OW." Hey, it's true, at least. I can handle him dating. Not very well, mind you, but I can handle it. And it's almost sick to admit it, but I know he's not over me completely and that will ruin that relationship and just bring him closer to me. I've said for a long time to my BFF that he NEEDS to date, to figure out how hard it is to have a R with someone else, and realize the least common denominator in hard R's is HIM, not me. That would set our reconcilliation back by some years, but I've got nothing but time.
I refuse to put my son in that position of "Who do I call Mommy and Daddy?" at this point in his life. He's 5 and suffers from anxiety issues, no need to put more pressure on him. Therefore, I will not be dating (anyone but my Ex) until he's much older. Besides, then I have more money to spend on ME!
Keep being confused by me, ExCautious. It's good for you.
Me: 26 Ex: 27 Son: 5
Divorced: 3/2010 Each day is another opportunity to do it right.
