Thats a tough one OTM. I think you really need to work on that physical attraction bond. Mentally. Desire is very important as well. There has to be something that you find attractive. Look for it and begin to think about it and smile. And build this up in your mind. Then just expand from there. And start some research on this. A great 180 for you to overcome.

I could not love a woman as my wife if I was not attracted to her. Physically , mentally and emotionally. They are all in the equation.

Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul.
unconditional love is awesome!