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[awest1217]

Did not sleep well at all...S woke up at 4 and said he couldn't sleep either. I am not sure what is going on, but we both need some sleep.

Tomorrow is the big day. I am really holding back contacting H because I think it is unfair to decide something and never tell me at all, but hey, none of this has been fair to me. We will see what today brings. At least I have the youth rally tonight to keep me busy. The house is almost cleaned for the week so tomorrow I can either pack his junk up or help him unpack...or if I hear nothing, just go grocery shopping.

On top of no contact, H hasn't given me the child support either which is weird because the last few months he has been sure to pay it, and the last two months give a little extra. Who knows what is going on, but the constant wonder is starting to take its toll.