Hi Sage,
I'm so glad things are going well for you! You sound so positive, and I'm sure that carries over into your R with your H. You have been sprouting off so many positives lately that I find myself thinking this is one M that's going to make it!
BOY...... do I know what you mean when you think that H is distant, and all those assumptions and negative thoughts that just POP into our heads.
I feel like a barometer-my husbands moods make it go up or down. Up means high axniety time folks!(can we say codependent behavior??)
I suppose this will get better as time passes. I mean everyone has times when they are a little quiet or distant,
don't they?
What I REALLY hate is wondering if when I'm suspicious when H is acting different if it's just me ASSuming again, or if it's my gut instinct trying to tell me something. Do you ever wonder that???? Then I go to battle with myself.
That's pretty much where I stand right now even though H is being very attentive and loving. There are just things I wish he'd do that he's not. I have gotten better at communicating and not being SARCASTIC, which I've been so guilty of in the past.
We had an incident last night where I sent him an email after waiting ALL day for one from him saying "No emails today?"
He answered me back that he did not get even one from me the day before (he did, but it was in response to his pretty lame one)
Instead of arguing my case, I just said that we BOTH should make an effort to email during the day and told him I loved him. I was the first to email him this morning. I'm not tooting my horn though because after he did not answer my email for over an hour I called him to see what he was doing. He was very nice and was on his way to meet our son in law on a jobsite. WHY DO I DO THIS????? Rachael


Rachael