Attracted from time to time, yes - but not physically. Not unattracted either...neutral. You might say I have high enough desire for that kind of intamacy that my inattention & mental hyperactivity can get my mind where it needs to be. In a way, this is part her issue - that I was with her without being "with" her enough. If I thought there was something like RV out there, I would've tried that year one!
She hasn't been able to get my main point. If I could be that close to her for 11 years without love, imagine what could love do to our R in the next year!
She figures that if I'm not attracted in the active sense to her, then having another imagined image in my head is like a mental affair. I tried reminding her that I'm not expecting her to be my "dream" woman, and that most men see faults in their wives appearance but the love wipes out the fault. Just developing love now in our R, don't I deserve some time to develop my physical attraction?
I've tried to tell her that if I want to be with her, why does it matter the reason? I will not and never have gotten even one step toward any other physical woman's body - I figured that was enough.
Now that I finally feel romantic love for the first time in my life, I am getting more attracted, but I guess not fast enough. For once in my M, I my heart races to sit & touch on the sofa, and she wants none of it because I don't think her chest is my "dream".
I knew there was a fall from the top of the rollercoaster, but I AM going to go back up. I hope she's going to go back up with me.
Last edited by Onthemountaintop; 03/12/1007:28 AM.
