Totally and completely don't know how to act around H. Our time together is now quite limited as I"m in rehearsals during his "nights" here. Part of me wants to keep the "as if" we're together feeling, part of me wants to send the "I'm avoiding you after months of emotional abuse and neglect" feeling.
I also don't want "More of the same" before he left, I used to be at reahearsals a lot and we'd just pass like ships in the night. I want to do it differently and spend more time together, but for a year now he hasn't shown much interest in being around me. However, he has been showing small signs of turning a corner...
Ah the rollercoaster! I want to bond, but I don't want to seem needy. That make sense?
