I had a job interview today! One that would be perfect for me and help me get back on my feet. Everyone HOPE and PRAY I get it - the income would mean not working two jobs anymore and NO roommate unless I wanted one!!! It would also mean benefits and sick time - which I haven't had in years because I've been self employed. I really didn't like the idea of going back to a job, but now that I'm here, it would be nice to do one I like!!! Here's hoping and praying ....
H sent an email today - going over some of the same bill/finances stuff that he's emailed about before. Clearly its life of death if he dosen't have a minute by minute update on how I'm progessing with our taxes! I'll respond next week when I have them done. Nothing super important... but he clearly feels the need to engage me every Thursday like clockwork. He sent me a text message telling me - yet again - to call him if I had any questions. It seems he is set on getting me to call him. The email talked about the issue he wanted me to call him about last week - so clearly he managed to answer that question on his own! I don't get it. Still no mention of actually filing for D -which is really all I care about. Either file - or go to counseling and start working on you..... Seems so simple....
Part of me just REALLY wants this to be over.... and part of me feels like its just not DONE yet. Like WE aren't done yet - Like I'm missing something in all this... I'm just sick of waiting... I might have reached the end of my patience! I'm sick of the limbo, sick of being celibate, sick of the uncertainty, sick of feeling bogged down by a crazy person... ALL OF IT.
At the same time.... I'm not ready to just go and file myself yet.. I fear I may need to soon - just to get myself some peace....
Oh how I wish I had a crystal ball and could see what's ahead!!!
ME28,WAH30, M 5YRS, T 7YRS ,OW/ILYBNILY/SEP 9/09 Served with D papers 6/6/10 Current
