I hope the money and H job situation improves soon, so you can get your full access to Madam back. It seems like such a good stress reliever for you. I think he's going to be able to acknowledge your hurts more after he is employed, frankly. He needs to save face now to keep his esteem up over what he did and the trouble he caused and the fact that he doesn't have a job back yet. With the job might come the esteem boost to let his denial down and be more empathetic. You deserve it!