Thanks, Tal, and blownaway-

You are very right. I haven't taken that day off from work yet to just sob it all out.

The explanation about "labeling" feelings did help. I will talk with my C about this.

I do know that by "stuffing" my feelings it will all come out later, somehow.

I just wish I had a week of vacation to lie in bed and wail...maybe I could wail it all out and get it over with!

Keeping a journal of letters never to be sent is a good, though painful, idea.

BA--HOW are you facing W and OM? My struggle right now about where to live is ALL about-how can I, when can I, deal with seeing X and GF? Do I stay in Vtown and "risk" running into them at the grocery store?

Ugh, how do you people co-parent and see X and OM/OW all the time?

Should I stay or should I go...where to buy a house.

Then I had a "duh!" moment. I could rent for a year. Give myself time to figure out the new life, new place, new where and how to be. No need to rush and pressure and deal with a house.

So that was a good thought.

Thanks again!