Loved and Supported...

[sage]

I'm in high anxiety mode right now and I'm not handling it well. I was out doing errands and when I came home h was already home. I came into the house pepped up and enthusiastic. He was in the computer room with the door shut (to keep out the cats). I knocked, waited for him to say come in. He had his homework up on the screen. I asked what he was doing...he said homework. Then I noticed on the task bar that hotmail was also open in "compose" -- you know, when you're writing an email.

My heart just closed down. I don't know why. Well...I guess I do...

h has barely responded to any of my emails this week and it's been bugging me.

if you're sending an email...not doing homework...why not just say "I'm sending email".

Because for whatever reason, you don't think you can tell your w what you're really doing.

I pulled away and started going downstairs. I could tell that h was confused.

This crap (mine I suppose) isn't helping anything.

I don't want to have some giant r. talk.
I don't want to feel like he's lying to me.
I don't want to talk about it because no matter what I'm gonna end up feeling like a jerk.

Sage