Just re-read my last post. Sorry about the whining. Sometimes when I am posting, I just let my mind go and lose all of the hard earned control that I have worked for. I am in a much better place that I was a month ago when I found this site. I know this and I know I will be OK no matter what I will get stronger as time goes by, and I will be the person I want to be and the father that my kids need.
Either that or lose my mind. I think I was almost there and that is no longer an option!