Sage, I'll look for you to stop by. I think alot of my dsadness has to come from FEAR.Fear that this won't last. He's come home before and he wasn't really ready although for a time he was very loving. I'm afraid now is the same thing-that he will be this way for awhile and then decide that he does not really want to be with me. That really scares me. It makes me afraid to think this is real. That he's really out of the tunnel. Did you go through this??? I don't want to give him the impression I don't want to be with him. I have to get my emotions under control! Yikes! Rachael
