H4L H was encouraging me to go ride madam and obviously I was a bit hesitant. I was able to explain that it used to be my sanctuary but because I owe my dear yard owner money I don't feel so comfortable, so I don't waste petrol popping in for a cuddle and have to be careful to show I'm not wasting money else where, he still doesn't know my friend is not just helping ride but contributing to costs, but of course that means her helping means I can't do things so easily. Probably didn't all make sense but he realised it's not the same for me and it's not easy. He was sympathetic but I could do with more empathy, some how at some point he needs to feel how I feel or am I expecting to much to ever get him to acknowledge my hurts?
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
