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[blownaway65]

Aver, I have a stack of letters I wrote with the "intention" of giving to W. They range from really soppy to extremely angry.

Needless to say she will never see any of them, but I'm glad I wrote them and I will probably keep them as well.

I guess they were really a way for me to express my feelings at the time and as an outlet for them.

Like Tal, my IC is helping me DEAL with the issues that go with having to have semi regular contact with W & OM. To that point I've spoken to W about the need for us to remain able to have a civil conversation about the kids, House etc - and I can tell you that was really hard, but not as hard as I'd worked myself up to think it would be.

Currently working on being able to stand in front of OM and speak to him rather than kick him in the nuts !!!

The fact that W is with him not me doesn't make me any less of a person.

Aver I guess I'm really saying what Tal is, you HAVE to deal with the bad feelings as well as the good ones, no matter how much it hurts, in order to move forward.