Loved and Supported...

[sage]

Ag -- Thanks so much for taking the time to answer my queries! It helped a lot. also, thanks for reminding me that sometimes we sabotage our love relationships when we feel as though we don't deserve them...that's actually been a not infrequent theme with h over our years

I remain worried that I just don't have the skills to do this right...to keep this moving forward...or maybe it isn't so much the "skills" but the "awareness". Sometimes I get so caught up in my own fears and resulting expectations and ASSumptions that I can't see that darned forest!

Oh, well, you guys keep me honest and when I get out of the cheeseless tunnel I do find that I am often able to discrern what's happening.

I met h at school last night and we went out for drinks and dinner. Came home pretty early and watched TV. Positives from yesterday include multiple loving (!!) phone calls, him being so eager and happy to see me last night, and good convos about school (his) and work (mine).

I have to go do my flybaby assignment so I'll catch up with everyone later but I did want to post something that I read....it relates to h's statements that I still don't seem happy sometimes and my frustration with that.

The book it's from is "The Highly Sensitive Person" by Elaine Aron.

" Sometimes people with our trait [being highly sensitive] are said to be less happy or less capable of happiness. Of course, we can seem unhappy and moody, at least to non-HSPs, because we spend so much time thinking about things like the meaning of life and death and how complicated everything is -- not black-and-white thoughts at all. Since most non-HSPs do not seem to enjoy thinking about such things, they assume we must be unhappy doing all that pondering. And we certainly don't get any happier having them tell us we are unhappy (by their definition of happy) and that we are a problem for them because we seem unhappy. All those accusations could make anyone unhappy."

Woohoo!!!! I am not crazy and neither is h!

Sage