In YOUR situation.... You SHOULD continue to show her your remorse with what you did to her and how you treated her those times you were drinking...
"You are right honey, I don't blame you for wanting out and for not being able to forget what I did to you. I was WRONG. I was totally wrong. I understand how you can feel that way about me now."
That is your mantra when SHE brings up a relationship talk. DEFAULT to that position EVERY TIME.
"You are right honey, I don't blame you for wanting out and for not being able to forget what I did to you. I was WRONG. I was totally wrong. I understand how you can feel that way about me now."
Do NOT add things like.."If you would give me another chance,or I was drunk, or why can't you forget it."
Always default to... "You are right honey, I don't blame you for wanting out and for not being able to forget what I did to you. I was WRONG. I was totally wrong. I understand how you can feel that way about me now."
And then be quiet. Keep on this mantra... Give her emotional space. Do NOT ask her to forgive you. LIVE your life like you mean it with her when you say you were wrong and when you say you understand. (because you SHOULD understand why she would feel that way. I understand why she would and so should you)