This is a relatively quiet week for me - at least in terms of dealing with WH. He is still away visiting the OW. Since my e-mail blow-up I kept silent, not commenting on any of his cc e-mails.
This is a week for me. I'm finally starting to pick-up speed on day to day life - work especially. I can concentrate on it more and I have the desire to get things done, so I'm catching up on my work, thinking about MY LIFE and how I want to live it. Not that I'm giving up on WH, but I now realize that this is not going to be a matter of few months... this may take a long time. Even if his affair fizzles out, I don't think he will be in the mental state to just jump back into the marriage and commit and I wouldn't want him to. It's going to be a slow process and I would be very cautious after the last false comeback.
I'm ready to start planning and living my life AS IF. I can't no longer just be waiting for him, paralyzed with grief as I was for the past six months.
Things I did FOR ME today:
1) Got my hair done 2) Attended Divorce/separation support group 3) Made a list of homes for sale that I want to check-out 4) Spent (to much) time on line reading the DB forum
Last edited by Mila; 03/11/1011:04 AM.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
