rr22 - no, the goal was to be invited. H just wanted to drop in and see S, so I told him he could come to the park which we already planned.
FM, thank you. This is what I'm shifting to. It's very new and disorienting. Sad too. I guess I unconsciously felt if H would come back to me, all my Rs would not be failures. I have to not put that on him. Also, he may be in the same category as those past Rs. I just don't know right now.
I hate having these doubts once H seems to be turning the corner.
anyhow, next week is the one year anniversary of the bomb. Tuesday to be exact. I better batten down the hatches and not expect any good behavior from H.
